The Failure Series
I’m going to start a series when I get my blog up again called The Failure Series in which I document my failures. Probably will have one failure a week. I fail a lot, you guys. And as much as people say “fall down seven times, stand up eight” I don’t think failure is SHOWN enough. I feel like failure is hidden until you’re Lady Gaga status. That’s not life. I’m going to share failure after failure after failure. Because I’m good at it. Because it might inspire someone to keep going when they see that I do. Because eventually, I’ll get a “win” and I’ll have proof about how many times some people must fail to get somewhere.
Quotes (from May Cause Miracles)
“Heaven on earth is a choice you make, not a place you find.” -Wayne Dyer
“The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don’t have any” -Alice Walker
“You practice loving God by loving another human being” -Olivia Harrison
“If you’re feeling helpless, help someone” -Aung San Suu Kyi
Darling, just be...: “You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You...
“You don’t know anyone at the party, so you don’t want to go. You don’t like cottage cheese, so you haven’t eaten it in years. This is your choice, of course, but don’t kid yourself: it’s also the flinch.
Your personality is not set in stone. You may think a morning coffee is the most enjoyable…
(click the link to finish reading it, I think) This is a theory I have actually been developing for the past 2 - 3 weeks. The idea that “Everything you do is a habit”, not merely “just how you are”.
I want to be a millionaire, but not for the money
And to prove it, I will give away money on a regular basis. Half my income at least.
I want to be a millionaire (from my passions) because of what it symbolizes. That you figured out what works. No one can tell you that your head is in the clouds. No one can tell you to get real. People will listen to you. You can inspire someone. You can prove that dreams come true and goals can be actualized.
I know every millionaire I admire is a millionaire because they are best known for ONE thing. I’ve yet to find the ONE thing I want to be known for. I wish it were that easy for me, but its not. So until then, I’ll do my best. Take action. That’s how you distill passion. By taking action that affects others.
Until then my linkedin will say “Tech-savvy mindset writer, yoga/dance-athlete & holistic nutritionist”
Money is Not the Root of All Evil
I want to get to the root of it all. The base. Please, no “original sin” theories. It is desire for control. Desire for ultimate freedom (freedom to do what you want and have others do what you want). Other suggestions?
Oh so Blacks, Muslims, Christians, Liberals, Gays, and Jews. But not red-heads. DEFINITELY not ruled by gingers.
(Source: filthyphil, via bikeswarm)
So Glad the ‘Megan Fox is Hot’ Thing is Over
Remember that? Super annoying. Men and women commenting on how hot or “not that hot” Megan Fox is.
She PAID to look that way. Botox to make her eyebrows angled, cheek implants, lip injections, nose job, breast implants, make-up, hair, and clothes (don’t discount makeup, hair, and clothes — they significantly increase your sexual attractiveness).
Women compare themselves to her, not realizing that whatever she got, she paid for it! Not realizing people are actually commenting on what she paid for. She paid to look exactly as she looks now, rather than what is considered ‘normal’ ‘mediocre’ or just “regular pretty” before her surgeries and work.
I’m not against buying your looks, but I am against people hating themselves for not measuring up to what was cut and added under the knife.
Disease of the Privileged … Colorado Mass Murderer
Ever notice how all of these things are done by people who are socially privileged? A white man. An asian who’s able to go to a top school. Etc.
I always say if we want to stop terrorism, we need to start taking care of people who have no hope (no food, no money, no shelter, no love) in African and Middle Eastern countries.
But what about America? Because the terrorism that happens WITHIN our borders are not done by the homeless, hungry or poor. It’s always by someone who has every resource to be a great contribution to society.
I dunno, maybe they just need Jesus or a hug or something…
(if you don’t know what I’m talking about, click for the news story)
I’m a Feminist
I’ve been thinking about it and I think I can say I’m a feminist.
Someone tell me if I’m just delusionally wrong, ok?
I see the world for deeper than what its face value. I constantly explore the motivations and influences that cause disparity between the sexes and the races and the nationalities. I think about what I can do in my life to safe guard from falling into the ways that lead to acceptance of what’s not right. I bring these ideas up to those around me and they listen. I see a beauty in women that I don’t think others see and I embrace that in myself. It’s not okay to me that I should do things I don’t want to do because I am a woman. I acknowledge that I enjoy a lot of the things I enjoy because I am a woman.
I just think differently. Believe differently. And care differently. In a way that makes someone say “I think you’re right, but what can you do?” and I say “You can do whatever you want to do…”
“I was just thinking today about balls”
Everyone says Rihanna’s album is the dirtiest they’ve ever heard.
But why is it ok for guys to rap about skeeting and sweat dripping down their balls (f—ing gross) and when a girl is saying “and he wanna put his name on it” its dirty?
This stuff makes me mad. We’re in America.
Why Spirituality Doesn’t Make Sense
This is why spirituality doesn’t make sense to you/your friend/super-athiest/whomever.
When you talk to a blind person, how would explain what the colour blue is? You can’t! You can TRY to describe it using senses the blind person has. But point blank, they cannot see BLUE so they just do not know BLUE. They can’t understand it the way you understand it.
Now, maybe this blind person goes and sees a doctor who teaches them some eye exercises that increases their vision by 20%. Okay, happy day. They can see A LITTLE BIT. So this time when you show them the colour blue, they have a better idea… but they still don’t fully get it the way you do.
This is spirituality. Humans are so silly. We have 5 senses. Plus reasoning, a 6th sense. Do you really think… that’s all there is?
Can you accept there’s the possibility of more sense that we humans are not capable of perceiving? The same way the dog barks before you know what’s up. The same way I can see blue and the blind dude can’t. There are limits to our senses. Can you imagine the possibility of that there are things in our existence that our senses cannot detect?
When you pray, meditate, do drugs, whatever you feel it takes to get you a LITTLE BIT of insight into a world of senses we do not have — you’re like the blind man doing his eye exercises. Imagine a world where everyone was blind, but you did your exercises and you saw 20% more than the rest of the world. And you start talking about what you saw and no one understands wtf you’re saying. It doesn’t make any sense. Because no one else has that sense.
I dunno. Think of it that way. -edit- omg, I just realized that I sound like a stoner. I swear, I’m not. I just like to think about these things all the time lol!
A Thought on Donating to the Poor
You know, they say that you feel most fulfilled and abundant when you GIVE.
I wonder, what would happen if you did give — money, food, gifts — to those in need? Under one condition: That they pay it forward. That they give a portion of their gift to someone else in need.
My premise for this is that the poor rarely have an opportunity to experience the “fulfillment and abundance” of giving. When you donate to them, all they are doing is receiving. Yes, they also give thanks, but they still do not get to experience a greater sense of abundance that giving away something can give.
Hmm… so I’m wondering if there is a “Pay it Forward” organization. If not, could I create it? Would anyone be behind me? I can hear people saying “That is so wrong” right now. “Those people have nothing and you won’t help them unless they give things away?” But I just want to experiment with this.
When I was in middle school, I had a trumpet private lesson teacher. He told me that I had a strong power that will get me far when I’m older. That power was to hold a steady gaze into someone’s eyes.
Whenever he would tell me something — a story, a correction, whatever, I would give him my full attention. I would listen and watch him. My gaze would peer into his soul because I I wanted to get the full essence of what he was saying. Lo and behold, every time someone gave me a correction, I somehow was able to fix it immediately. He said “Your ability to focus on someone’s eye is really powerful. You may not understand how now, but when you’re older, that will help you a lot.”
My mom said “You know what he said that? He thinks you’re weird!!” In my head I thought “Maybe it is weird because no one cares to do it. But I think he meant what he said that it is powerful.” I knew this back then only because on TV, the most persuasive or the most sexy character and people were able to hold gaze. Maybe I was emulating them, but what my mom said affect me in that I started to explore other ways to non-verbally communicate with others.
I’m thinking about this now because… I still do this. And I’m at an age where the conversations I have are no longer teacher to student. I’m having peer to peer convos. And when I hold my gaze, people tend to ‘linger’ on me. They stick around a little bit longer. I don’t know what it means. If they’re wanting something more. If they’re expecting something. If the gaze creates a bond that’s a little harder to break. Sometimes it makes the person feel insecure, which makes me giggle.
But I also think about the times when you’re with someone who loves or likes you (a friend, a parent, a relative, a lover, whatever) and there’s moments where they just look at you. As if to just take your essence in. As if they are subconsciously fully acknowledging your existence as a physical and spiritual being. The look on the person’s face is the same look I get when I’m conversating and hold gaze.
Anywhoooo…. I’m just pondering. I just keep going back to what my teacher said. How powerful the gaze is. I don’t know if he meant that in a sexual way — the power the gaze can have as a woman speaking to a man. Or if he meant it in general. Or whatever, but I wish I could find him to say thankyou for putting this beautiful gnat idea in my mind.
This is how I feel today! This is how I want to feel everyday. Now, we may feel like this naturally every now and then, but I think I am beginning to see how to MAKE yourself feel like this.
- Clearing your mind (whether you meditate or dance or whatever)
- Feeling momentum in your desires (meaning you are getting crap done, you are making progress towards goals and completing them)
- Eye for possibility (you recognize the infinite possibilities in each moment)
Just a thought… a musing this morning.
