Back @ School, Shining My Light
I’m back at school and my mac is in repair which means less posts, as you’ve noticed.
First, I want to praise whatever Holy Spirit who decided to show up because this summer has helped me mature a lot. There was no SIGNIFICANT experience that caused the maturity. No trips to a different country or disaster. Just pure and simple clearing of the mind (learned & practiced with school of metaphysics). Suddenly, Jesus’ words in the Gospel made COMPLETE sense (reading “Crazy Love”, highly recommend for Christians). I could see “past” our egos. I was skeptical of this stuff, but so desperate for something to take me to the “next level” that I stuck with it and I am convinced. Hands down.
I felt fantastic just before school. Centered. Confident. Loving. I was starting to glow from the inside out and EVERYONE could see it. Seriously, I had never received so many beautiful comments in my life. When my own MOTHER called me “gorgeous” I knew a big shift was happening within me.
Now, I’m in school. I still feel ok. I don’t think I can go as low as I had been before again. But, I’m scared. I feel scattered. I’m dreading and fearful of some things. Also, food is becoming a problem. I am eating out the whazzo. Eating, eating, I can’t stop. I ate all my vegetables and now I’m resorting to… Lay’s Potatoe Chips. I don’t know what is up with these cravings!
But tomorrow is fruit day. I’ve got plantains, watermelon, pears, oranges and bananas. Didn’t have energy to go all out like last week (Spaghetti Squash + Plantains + Delicious Hot Tomato Sauce… amazing whether you’re on Fruit fast or not!).